Jason Gray

Truly, truly, I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a seed; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.”
—John 12:24

The human spirit is something like a muscle in that it must be pushed to its limits and torn down in order to grow. 3 words to describe this process of transformation are order, disorder, and reorder.

Order is when everything is going according to our plan. We’re using all that we’ve learned so far to put our lives together with stability and security.

Disorder is when our plan falls apart. We find we weren’t as in control as we thought we were and there is more we need to learn. Reminded of our vulnerability, we are broken down and opened up enough to meet with God in a profound way.

Reorder is when we emerge from disorder transformed by what we learned and by having met with God in a way that changed us. We are wiser, kinder, more humble, and stronger than before.

Today’s reorder becomes tomorrow’s order, and the cycle begins again. Recognizing this helps me panic less and trust more.

I wrote some songs to explore these themes and decided to release them in three volumes: “Order,” “Disorder,” and “Reorder,” giving time and space for reflecting on one part of the journey before digging into the next.

Volume 1: Order releases August 16. It’s a 5 song reflection on what I think of as the kind of base-line wisdom that is foundational for future discovery: the humility that recognizes we are works in progress (“Becoming“), the simple gratitude for the gift and giver of life (“Maker Of Mornings“), the necessity of childlikeness (“The Wonder“), the peace of living surrendered (“I’m Gonna Let it Go“), and the hope that the author and finisher of our faith is always at work in the roller coaster ride of transformation (“Order Disorder Reorder“).